Post by Leppy101 on May 20, 2015 12:58:22 GMT -5
You know, as I was growing up (and still am) most of my days was spent playing video games. I wasn't exactly all that popular in school and as my friends and I grew throughout the school years, we hung out less and less.
I guess you could say, video games became my new best friend.
It was around 6th grade for me that Greenfire32 got his first xbox360 with Call of Duty: MW1 and Gears of War 1. I'm not saying those were bad games..but I didn't spend NEARLY the amount of time I did during my 7th grade year, which is also when Halo 3 was released. A LOT of my time was spent on that game.. I actually did poorly in some classes because I spent so much time playing halo.
Looking at where I am now (one full year graduated from high school) and then looking back at my earlier years...it kinda brings a sad heavy weight on me. Could that be depression? Eh..I don't think so..but it feels very similar. I haven't talked to 90% of my graduating class since graduation (and because most of them are dicks anyway) and the other 10% I hardly talk to because of..well..they're in college and they're kinda busy so that's understandable.
And then I found a video on the good 'ole YouTube of Halo 3 and that sad heavy weight grew even more. Now it's starting to feel like depression right? Eh..that's up to you to decide. I watched the video and instantly thought back on all the times my friends, Greenfire32's friends, himself, and I played Halo 3 and other games.
Honestly.. Sometimes I wish I was back in 6th grade just to re-live all those exact moments again. Good and bad. I wish to go back and laugh as hard as I did then compared to what I do now. That last time I laughed really hard to the point I had tears coming out of my eyes while playing a video game, was when Greenfire32, Hattmandoo, and I were playing GTA V and they were flying the pavlow helicopter and I was following them in a golf cart. (about a year ago) Yes I laugh when playing games now but compared to when I was a lot younger...I'm kinda dull. Is that just me growing up or is it because everyone else decided to grow up and lose interest in gaming while I'm wanting to still be a kid and still play video games?
I can't be the only one here on this forum to think like this. And I know a lot of you are much older than me (I'm 20 FYI) and have far more memorable memories than what I do. But my question here is:
Don't you wish you could go back and re-live those times? Go back to where you had video game parties that consisted of 20 of your friends that did Halo tournaments and the grand prize was an easy $5.00 12 pack of Mountain Dew, but EVERYONE wanted it for the sake of saying they won something? Don't you wish you could go back to where you ACTUALLY sat on your friend's couch to play games with them instead of talking through a lousy microphone? To go back and say "STOP SCREEN LOOKING YOU CHEATER!"? To go back to where when you paused the game you would press start and yell "BLUE SCREEN" and force everyone to drop their controllers to make sure no one would kill you or set you up for death when you went to the bathroom? (Halo 2 original xbox reference).
Most of my friends are either in college or spend most of their time working, and when they're not doing 1 of those 2 things, they spend their time on their xbox using the Netflix app. Seriously, all I see anymore is "Leppy101 has 15 friends online" 12 of them are watching Netflix. I understand that not everyone has the amount of free time like I do, but it does kinda hurt to send a message asking "Hey, want to play Halo 3 like old times?" and to receive a message back saying "Nah, I don't play games anymore" or "I grew up, so should you".
Am I just being a sad, depressing, 20 year old acting like a child?
Sorry for the incredibly long read.
I guess you could say, video games became my new best friend.
It was around 6th grade for me that Greenfire32 got his first xbox360 with Call of Duty: MW1 and Gears of War 1. I'm not saying those were bad games..but I didn't spend NEARLY the amount of time I did during my 7th grade year, which is also when Halo 3 was released. A LOT of my time was spent on that game.. I actually did poorly in some classes because I spent so much time playing halo.
Looking at where I am now (one full year graduated from high school) and then looking back at my earlier years...it kinda brings a sad heavy weight on me. Could that be depression? Eh..I don't think so..but it feels very similar. I haven't talked to 90% of my graduating class since graduation (and because most of them are dicks anyway) and the other 10% I hardly talk to because of..well..they're in college and they're kinda busy so that's understandable.
And then I found a video on the good 'ole YouTube of Halo 3 and that sad heavy weight grew even more. Now it's starting to feel like depression right? Eh..that's up to you to decide. I watched the video and instantly thought back on all the times my friends, Greenfire32's friends, himself, and I played Halo 3 and other games.
Honestly.. Sometimes I wish I was back in 6th grade just to re-live all those exact moments again. Good and bad. I wish to go back and laugh as hard as I did then compared to what I do now. That last time I laughed really hard to the point I had tears coming out of my eyes while playing a video game, was when Greenfire32, Hattmandoo, and I were playing GTA V and they were flying the pavlow helicopter and I was following them in a golf cart. (about a year ago) Yes I laugh when playing games now but compared to when I was a lot younger...I'm kinda dull. Is that just me growing up or is it because everyone else decided to grow up and lose interest in gaming while I'm wanting to still be a kid and still play video games?
I can't be the only one here on this forum to think like this. And I know a lot of you are much older than me (I'm 20 FYI) and have far more memorable memories than what I do. But my question here is:
Don't you wish you could go back and re-live those times? Go back to where you had video game parties that consisted of 20 of your friends that did Halo tournaments and the grand prize was an easy $5.00 12 pack of Mountain Dew, but EVERYONE wanted it for the sake of saying they won something? Don't you wish you could go back to where you ACTUALLY sat on your friend's couch to play games with them instead of talking through a lousy microphone? To go back and say "STOP SCREEN LOOKING YOU CHEATER!"? To go back to where when you paused the game you would press start and yell "BLUE SCREEN" and force everyone to drop their controllers to make sure no one would kill you or set you up for death when you went to the bathroom? (Halo 2 original xbox reference).
Most of my friends are either in college or spend most of their time working, and when they're not doing 1 of those 2 things, they spend their time on their xbox using the Netflix app. Seriously, all I see anymore is "Leppy101 has 15 friends online" 12 of them are watching Netflix. I understand that not everyone has the amount of free time like I do, but it does kinda hurt to send a message asking "Hey, want to play Halo 3 like old times?" and to receive a message back saying "Nah, I don't play games anymore" or "I grew up, so should you".
Am I just being a sad, depressing, 20 year old acting like a child?
Sorry for the incredibly long read.